Everyday I go through motions; going to work and yoga, eating, cleaning, walking my dog Daisy, speaking and spending time with family and friends, cooking, planning, shopping, organizing and the list goes on. Some days end extremely productive but most of the time nothing stands out as satisfying, meaningful or intentional. Am I living in these moments with full awareness, understanding and gratitude? Or am I just continuing on my way, skating on the edges of them, getting as much done in the time I have in order to feel accomplished by days end?
I consider myself a productive person, a good person who cares about others and strives to learn and self educate. I get these great great ideas and plans that are to enhance my life and maybe (not by any great plan) enhance the people's lives around me. But where do these ideas come from and why am I starting a new project? What purpose does it serve? If and when I start the project, am I sticking with it or learning from it?
A couple months ago I was at an estate sale and found this baby blue, ceramic pasta maker for only six dollars. My eyes lit up when I saw it on the bottom shelf in the picked over kitchen. I love cooking, eating and being in the kitchen, I enjoy pasta, I feel that I should make things from scratch and I definitely know I shouldn't go out and buy a new one, so of course I should buy it. My mind reeled with ideas of pasta making and fancy entertaining with this six dollar device. I had to have it and for six dollars it would gets its value worth and practically an investment. I would teach myself how to make all different kinds of pasta and become versed in the practice. I scurried through the rest of the house, clutching the noodle maker like I had just found the secret to Italian kitchens everywhere. I thought about how I could tweet about it, and maybe start that blog I've been imagining about projects and such with this amazing six dollar find! I bought it after discussing with the gal at the register my plans for it, went home, unwrapped and cleaned it, laying it all out to photograph (because of course I would have to post pictures on my new blog). So self satisfied and exhausted with excitement from planning and thinking about noodle making I headed into the living room with my computer to start my long awaited blog.
I never started the blog and I have not once touched the noodle maker.
I get so excited when I get plans for projects or life altering changes but rarely follow through with them. I get so caught up in the day to day must do activities that I overlook doing the things that I want to do or get overwhelmed and don't know where to start with the number of things I want to take on. By starting this blog I intend to keep focus of my energies within these projects and plans and
live more fully in the moments I get. I want to decipher between what will actually help me in my pursuit to become a better, more productive, domestic, healthier, wholesome and greener person and what is just fluff and a distraction. I want to research things to fully understand
why and how it is improving and impacting my life. Through this deeper understanding and practice I will increase fulfillment and h
appiness in everyday life and hopefully do the same for the people around me.